You Always Run Away

Workout Day One Part One

Starting Weight:  241lbs Current Weight:  232lbs Goal Weight: 140lbs

After a week of only dieting, I started my workout this morning.  I couldn’t believe how difficult it was to just briskly walk a third of a mile.  My chest was burning, it was hard to breath, my feet hurt and all I wanted to do was stop.

I was so upset with myself.  While I’ve never been athletic, I was a dancer in high school and even made the all-state team.  Two years ago I was running a mile a day and I was sixty pounds lighter.  Now I can barely WALK a third of a mile after doing 20 squats and 30 step ups.  

The only thing I’m happy about is I did it.  It wasn’t much, but I woke up this morning and I went and I worked out.  This afternoon I’ll go and do even more.  I need to push myself to be the best I can be.  I have the desire to change and that desire is out weighing the fear and the embarrassment.